A day in the life of an audio visual junkie
30 Oct
I received a forwarded e-mail authored by Carlo Cruz, husband of Leslise Cruz who died in the Glorietta blast. Let us pray for her and for her family.
Good day everyone,
I wish I were writing under different circumstances.
I would like to inform you that my wife Leslie Cruz was part of the casualties in the Glorietta 2 Mall bombing in Makati City, Philippines. She was supposed to have a minor out patient surgery at Makati Medical Center at 230pm.
I had taken a leave from work to accompany her there. We dropped off our daughter, Amber, at my parents place in QC to babysit at around 10am. We then proceeded to Makati and was there at 1230pm. Since she had been fasting in preparation for her procedure, she wanted to move around and listen to some music while I grabbed a bite to eat. We parked at the basement of Park Square 2, and headed for the Glorietta 2 entrance. We parted at the top of the escalator, she turned right towards Filbar’s while I went left towards the restaurants. That was the last time I would see her.
Around 120pm, she had called me so that we can meet at the Glorietta 2 exit just in time to make her appointment. As I made my way there from Glorietta 1 through the connecting hallways, and was about to turn the corner, I heard 2 deep thumps and the shock-wave from the blast hit me. At that moment my heart dropped as I knew that the origin of the blast came from the same place where we were supposed to meet. I tried getting to where my wife was, but the dust was too much and it was as if I was staring at a white wall.
I still tried to convince myself that she was able to make it out, and that after ringing her mobile without a response only meant that she dropped it in the confusion. After 6 hours of searching from Makati Med. to Ospital ng Makati, the blast site, and back again to MMC - with the help of all the people I could get hold of, that I was able to get confirmation in what the state of my wife was.
My Dad and Uncle signaled me in from the ER of MMC. My Uncle (who’s a doctor) asked me to describe Leslie’s appearance to another group of doctors. I saw in the eyes of one that the description made sense. Instead of confirming it to me, they huddled together, then brought me to a small examination room. It was only through a digital camera that I was able to confirm (and deny) that she was indeed gone.
I have so many regrets. I should have met her sooner. I should have ran instead of a brisk walk. I should have not chose to park where I did. I should have braved the dust and went in the blast site. I should have …
Today’s the 4th day. It is still terribly difficult to breathe, let alone wake up realizing that your source of strength, your best friend doesn’t lie beside you on your bed. That my deepest worry is when Amber starts asking for her Mama.
I am glad that Amber’s too young to understand the loss and pain. In time I would like to tell her the details of how her mother died, but more importantly I would like to raise her as how her mother lived - a loving person, strong willed, decisive, caring, and nurturing. She has always cared for her family and friends, and sacrfied her career for being a full time mom and home maker.
As with all couples we had our ups and downs - none of which I regret not going through. The sweet is never as sweet without the sour. For almost 4 years of marriage, we’ve finally hit our balance in life only to be taken away in an instant. I have no regrets about our marriage. She has loved me and Amber beyond her capacity. I will always love her.
It is my first time to write to egroup as I’ve lurked and watched emails being sent to and fro. All I want now is that for each of the couples here is to cherish each moment that we spend with our loved ones. Pretty simple to say, very easy to take for granted.
Thank you all for the prayers. I would still like to ask you to please include Leslie in them until her 40th day so that the path to God’s kingdom is well lit and she is no longer in the dark.
Sincerely,
Carlo Cruz
I previously blogged about the incident here: Glorietta 2 Bombing (with Videos)
43 Responses for "A Letter From Carlo Cruz, Glorietta Blast Victim"
im so sorry that what happen to your wife.I will pray for her and always in a good feeling sana matagal kayo magkasama and your love will never stop for your wife Leslie Cruz.Promise that i will pray for her.She is there watching for you and your child.just pray and all things will be better.ok
we know it is hard to lose someone so dearly. but God has reasons for everythin that is happenin around. carlo, , keep on prayin and dont ask why this happened, just trust Him.
i’m really sorry for what had happened..
after I heard the news of Mike Enriquez last Nov1 on DZBB while we were about to go to Baguio, I keep on looking for your e-mail.
Good thing, this nice person here posted this is his blog.
I know this is a good e-mail to send to my bf..
After learning of your story starting with the “Ogie-Regine” song at your wife’s wake to reading your letter/e mail(while listening at Mike Enriquez’s radio program), I fully convinced of your feelings towards LOVE. It was such a wonderful inspiration and after this reply I’ll be texting my wife to say a simple three word message, thank you very much….
hi carlo,thank you very much for posting your letter, it inspires me to love my partner more.
Thank You Dennison Uy for posting Carlo’s letter.
For Carlo: thank you for reading your letter live on DZBB, we will offer prayers for your dear Leslie as well as for your sweet daughter Amber.
Thank you for reminding us that we should cherish every moment spent with each other wether in good or bad times, My love for my family gained more strenght with your letter and for that; I thank You
Be Strong for sweet Amber . . .
always in prayer,
nicky, pia and our daughters nicole(7) and dana(2)
Carlo,
People dont die until they are forgotten.
I was touched by your love to Leslie. You awakened in me the need to cherish each moment spent with my wife. To grab every God-given opportunity to tell and show her that she is loved.
People like you and Leslie are inspirations to us who have read your emotion-filled message. Leslie have not gone in vain, she will continue to haunt our memories. Will remind us of how it is to be loved by someone like her.
You and Amber will always be in our prayers.
Be strong for your little Amber, dont let her see you lonely because you are her strength. Thank god she’s so innocent. Always hold on to him “wag kang bibitiw!!!”
To Leslie, May you find peace with Him..
To Carlo And Amber, Be strong.. there’s a purpose why things happened to our lives, I’ll pray that you and amber find more strength by trusting God why this happened to your family. I’m very much sure a lot of us were inspired by your story.. a story of a great love. Just keep on praying, we’ll also include Leslie on our prayers. Be strong for your self, for amber and especially for Leslie.
Carlo,
God has his own reasons why such things happened. Never lose your trust and faith in Him. There is a saying: “After the storm a light will shine.” God wll make a way for you to be strong and wisdom will outshine in you. Hold on and hold on tight! I envy Leslie for the true love you have shown and given her. You are such a good person giving the love and faith to your wife and child, Amber. You will surely find happiness knowing that Leslie is with God and in peace. She will always be included in my prayers. Nevertheless, do not thank God for all the blessings, He surely knew our longings and desires. Thank him for the sorrows, it will make you a strong person; thank him for all the pains, He wll make you a brave man; thank Him for all the sufferings, He will make you a wiser person and most of all thank Him for all the trials, it will make your faith stronger in Him.
To: Carlo & Amber
I WAITED patiently for the LORD; and he inclined unto me, and heard my cry. He brought me up also out of a horrible pit,out of the miry clay, and set my feet upon a rock, and established my goings. And he hath put a new songs in my mouth, even praise unto our God; many shall see it, and fear, and shall trust in the LORD.
PSALM 40:1-3
hi carlo,
Be strong, life must go on what ever happen to us. God haa own reason on it. ” di ka naman bibigyan nang pagsubok na di mo kaya lusutan” just always remember Leslie is always in your hearts. dont lose faith in our God.
Carlo,
Have a nice day to you and a HUG and KISSES to AMBER. For sure LESLIE will TRUST and LOVE you forever. Leslie is very LUCKY to have YOU as her HUSBAND and a BEST FRIEND because your LOVE to her is UNCONDITIONAL. So, there are NO reasons to be SAD be STRONG for AMBER as will as to LESLIE and LIFE goes on. Honestly, you INSPIRED many COUPLE in WHOLE WORLD and we are THANKFULL of your email.
We include LESLIE in our PRAYER. GOD blesses YOU and AMBER always.
Keep on PRAYING…
to carlo & amber,
im so sori of wat had happen to ur wife..
its really hard to accept but it’s God’s will, God has His own reason why these things are happening..
im just 18 yrs. old but i understand wat had happen to you now and the feeling of loneliness…
i think we shud all pray for leslie’s soul for her path to be lighted…
God loves us
God Bless Us All
Carlo,
My husband and I were in the car when we heard you from DZBB, we were both touched and inspired of your letter. We would like to thank you for sharing your letter which will give an eye opener to everyone. With God’s grace you will be able to get up and start over. As the saying goes Though he fall, he shall not be utterly cast down for the LOrd upholds him. (psalm 37:24) Please be strong for Amber. We will offer our prayers to your loving wife as well as to you and Amber.
God Bless !!!
Hi carlo,
be strong remember that god is always with you no matter what happen,don’t lose faith in god.
Carlo,
I am sorry about the pain of losing a loved one but life goes on with Amber. Be strong. Hold on to God, he is good and he has the reason for anything happen in our lives. Our prayers for Leslie..God bless you and Amber.
Dear Brother Carlo,
You are very strong indeed.
God sees and hears your pleadings and sacrifices. Continue your faith in him and greater things awaits for you.
God bless you and Amber.
from my family
rowena
I am trying to get in touch with Mr. Carlo Cruz. Does anyone know how I can reach him (his mobile # or e-mail maybe??) please email me dennison_uy [at] yahoo dot com
hi carlo…
i was really touched by your letter… about your great love to your wife leslie… i know this coming days will be a difficult days for you and to your little daughter amber… Always remember brother that there are lots of people right now interceding and praying for you and to your daughter amber… be strong and take courage always… God will make a way for you… God is good all the time…
” Fear not, for I Am with you; be not dismayed for I Am your God. I will strengthen you, Yes, I will help you; I will uphold you with My righteous right hand…”
- (Isaiah 44:10) -
Take care of your daughter amber… we know she will grow a strong, loving, kind and sweet person as her
mom… thanks again for touching our lives!
Godbless,
Choy and Family (Jhan, Jaline, Noah & Noel)
hi kuya carlo,
wish q makayanan muh yang pagsubok na bnigay sau and sobrang inspiring poh tlaga ng story nyo…wish you all the luck and be strong…!
hi carlo,
hope na mkayanan moh ung pagsubok na binigay sau… tsaka magng strong kpa sa mga mangyayari at nangyari sau lkasn moh lang ang loob moh and i know na qng nsan man c leslie ngaun hapi na xa kc she knows na you love him vry much…godbless and take care sa inyong dalawa ni amber…
hi carlo,
my husband and I heard ur letter thru DZBB and it has touched our hearts, it has truly inspired us to cherished each moment we have together. while i was listening to ur letter i cant helped but cry. God has reasons for everything though sometimes its so hard to understand. Be strong and God bless u…
carlo,
all i can say is that u touch my life and my heart and im really thankful about it. Im in pain ryt now and ur simple letter really helps me a lot to realize dat God allows everything to happen becoz He alone has a purpose in our life. the bible says IN EVERYTHING GIVE THANKS!, wether it is good or bad. Just always pray & u will find peace & comfort in God’s presence, He will never ever leave u nor forsake you,keep that on mind…
May God bless you & ur daughter amber,always ..
thank you very much!
Kuya Carlo, my mom told me your story. we read your piece together. we were touched.
kuya, i salute to you. you are such a strong man. lagi kong ipagdadasal ang asawa at buong pamilya mo lalo na ang anak mo.
through your letter, i have realized how much God loves me. As a 17 year old, i have so many complains na hindi naman pala dapat. Ang daming blessing na binibigay ni God. I have learned na Wag natin hanapin ang wala sa atin bagkus i-enjoy and pasalamatan natin kung ano ang meron tayo. Let’s take advantage sa mga gifts ni God.
Thank you for the lessons. Thank you for teaching me. I pray na sana maging maaus na ang lahat. you’ll always be in my prayers. God bless you. -Jazzle Eve L. Cruz
… good day! i hope this incident will be an inspiration for us pilipino’s to love each other while we are alive.Pls. dont hesitate to call to god almighty coz this time he is the one you can lean on.PLs. Take care of your son Amber.I will pray for both of you!!!
… God Bless!!!Take Care!!!
Dear Carlo,
I know how hard it is to lost someone you love most and how painful it is to imagine that your daughter will grow up without her mother. But one thing I am very much sure… YOU WILL CHERISH FOREVER EVERY MOMENTS YOU SPENT TOGETHER.
GOD has His own purpose. There must be a reason why this thing happened to you and your family.
We will pray for you and for Leslie.
hi carlo,
i heard you reading your letter for leslie this morning in DZBB( in Mike Enriquez’ program). I actually cried while listening.
like what other people said, it really touched our lives. im in deep pain right now….i realized so many things upon listening…..but to be honest im still not so sure if i can make this fight im going through.
i may not be able to share what im going through right now but still i wanna thank you. God indeed has a reason for everything. for allowing me to hear your story is god’s will.
be strong…….we are here behind your back….we are just an email away……
Thank you, you touch our lives. Continue to be strong. We will pray for leslie and others who died accidentally. May they find the path to heaven so they will not stay in the dark.
carl,
I know its not really easy however you really touched other lives and thanks for that you did not really lose leslie but you have us..
be strong and move forward..
our deepest sympathy for you and amber.
god bless.. . .
me
carl,
condolense..marami kaming nalungkot sa nangyari,walang gustong mangyari maliban lamang sa mga masasamang loob,carl tatagan mo loob mo siguro may purpose kung bakit nangyari yon sa iyo..kme lahat rito sa ormoc city ay nakikiramay…and ipadarasal na me ang kaluluwa nang misis mo….you inspire a lot with your last word….dapat nga e cherish ang lahat na oras na kasama mo mahal mo…sana ma realize nla yon..again CONDOLENSE
Edward Joseph Alvarado 19,Ormoc City
Carlo,
I regularly listen to DZBB program Saksi of Mike E every morning before going to work. I heard your e-mail that you have read for the first time and I was so touched and that made me love my wife and kids even more every minute and every hour of the day.
Like your wife, mine is also a homemaker focusing on our 2 energetic kids.
She used to work abroad before pero di ko natagalan sa sobrang miss ko sa kanya kaya that’s why I decided na pauwiin na lang sya.
E how much more ikaw?
I’m sure you have inspired so many lives.
We’ll be praying for you in our local church. And may our good & loving God give you more courage and peace for you to be able to overcome all the pains that you are experiencing right now. GOD bless you bro!
IN CHRIST,
Dong Fullo
San Pablo City, LAGUNA
Good day Carlo…
I am Vismarc Dela Cruz, a 20 year old Accountancy student from Cabanatuan City. I heared your interview with Mike Enriquez in DZBB. To be honest, it is as if my heart beat stopped during that moment, while listening to your message. I have so many experiences in life that almost made me give up and surrender. But when I heared your message, it was during that very moment that I felt the presence of God lingering like an unexplainable feeling to me. Though we are a total stranger to each other, but I know that your action of spreading the message of what happened to your wife is actually a commandment and will of God for you to do - so that other people, like me, will be enlightened. Its quite hard for me to express how your message created an impact in my life. Do not worry, because God will not let you become lonely and weak. You are not alone in this world which is full of hardship and struggle. God will always make use of someone, somewhere, somehow and sometime in the near future that will surely bring you back the very same happiness you and your daughter had with Leslie. I believe that Leslie is just there beside you… Only her physical aspect is gone… Her presence of love will always stay forever beside you and your daughter.
I thank God for making you as his instrument. And I thank you for passing by in my life even for a while.
I am sure that Leslie is now happily having a chat with God and the two of them are happily being with you and Amber now.
Have a good day!
Vismarc.
Carlo,
I listened to your interview with Mike ‘Imbestigador’ Enriquez over DZBB and I have to stay in my car in a park area to listen while you were reading your letter over DZBB. It really touched every one and me. May Our Almighty Father bless her and be in His Kingdom.
Despite this experience - Move on and only God know our limits.
Carlo, my empathy goes out to you and your daughter. Altough I havent felt that deep hurt and emptiness when one loses a love one, I felt like crying upon reading your letter. I was so touched and afraid of losing someone. I will pray for Leslie’s soul anf you too. Be strong. You still have Amber. part of her if Leslie… Godbless….
i dont know what to say, after reading your letter i just stop and kept quiet and my heart beat fast start to feel bad and cry. why do people take lives and do such things? i hate them so much!
kuya carlo,
Be strong po for your little princess amber and for yourself, i know its not that easy but time will heal all wounds we dont know when but it will be. don’t loose hope.
always put god in everything that you will do. maybe his testing you how you will take everything and how you will carry it without ate liezl. this time god will test you. and on your own self u will realize what are those things that made you more stronger because of ate liezl, now it will the show how does ate liezl make kuya carlo a more better person, a better man. ( i dont know if i said it right)
wishing you all the very good things that will come your way. don’t loose hope. god is everywhere, he’s always with you and he had send an angel to watch over of your little princess.
may the soul of ate liezl will rest in peace.
Mharkelhou 24, Dubai
condolence.just be strong 4 ur kids cos god has plan for you and the rest of you’re family.godbless.
carlo,
you may think that i’m still young to understand, what are you going through now… im just a 19yr. old girl, who still lack of emotions and experience, but through your letter, you showed me, what love truly is..
God, has a plan for all this….
don’t hold-back on him… Stay strong for you and also for Amber… “kapit ka lng kay GOD, D kaniya , bibitawan”
You are the strenght of amber, and you will be her confidant…
I’ll pray for the soul of leslie, so she may walk through the path to heaven with light,
I’ll pray for you and for amber, as well….
Dear Carlo,
Be strong, Amber needs you. God has His own plan for you and Leslie’s demise is included in His plan. We will pray for you and Leslie. Take care of Amber
i feel so sorry for the death of your wife
i have mercy on you and especially to your child who lost her mom at an early age.
here’s my suggestion
why don’t you marry again so that the pain will easen and your child will at lease have a mother even though if she’s not the biological one. At least she will still experience the love and care of a mother when you marry again.
carlo,
Its been quite long since the incident was happened, i know how hard this burden is, and how hard to accept the fact that your wife is no longer with you physically.
As i heard your interview in the television, i rushed immeadiately infront of my computer to search and read your composition about of what happened to you and your wife.
Its really a heart melting letter. I feel sorry of what happened to your wife, though we should still be thankful and feel blessed because we knew that your wife Leslie is already with our creator.
No one know’s how long we’ll be staying with our loved ones, we even dont know how it will end-up. But behind those tears and burdens, lets still be happy. Because God made this cirsumstances for us to have faith and enough strenght to face life…——…
“live each day as if it is your last day, show your love, care, and comfort to your love one..”
for time will come you will no longer show it physically…
I reaaly symphatized on you regarding that matter. I know that its too cricial fopr you but you do need to stay firm for your daughter because you must take good care of her now that Leslie is gone. Just upbring her with all best in order to make leslie happy wherever she is. Because your daughter is the only most precious legacy that Leslie could ever give you. Godbless you both..
my husband noel ask me to read ur letter months ago…naiyak ako,all the things that u said was true, as a husband a wife theres ups and down, maybe u’r wndering why i wrote u today, its because i lost my husband, a day after our vacation to palawan,i never thought that it would happen, he left the best memories he could..an o2psy report says MI daw, it hurts me a lot…sna gaya mo maovercome ko din ang pain…lost…i pray that God gave me enough courage, strenght for my kids…i love him so much,
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